Friday, April 9, 2010


I am too tired to do anything, low potassium, I have have been on pills & food -uck & redone labs several times-but level still has not changed?? day of surgery exact same # ?? making me nuts. We got up before the sun drove forever because we live kinda in the country & the hospitals are over an hour long morning drive & NO COFFEE-- AUGHHH, beautiful hospital hospital and my dr's have their own wing gorgeous (thinking---this is going to REALLY cost me!!) they take me to another floor for prep an hr later they begin freaking out because my potassium is really lo & they have to stop & delay surgery to pump me with potassium...ughhhh...staff was really lovely.. at 1 point 3 different people asking questions at once & doing tests-ekg's-blood-chart work... finally wheel me to OR by them I was frezing & they give me warm blankets. BUT no one tells you they will SHAVE you in your private area that would have been nice to know ahead of time. geez. then they kinda strip the gown back & put a surgical blacket with 2 holes over you-it has sticky stape around the holes & they wash you with betadine & it is FREEZING . Then they stick this on you & you are strapped to the OP table with cameras over you & waiting until the surgeon comes. you have to be still -can not move. they have you marked for the pulse point on your artery with marker, so you feel like you have to rub your nose.... :).. then it seems like 2 hr's..... then goes very fast when he comes in.. He has a wonderful presence-so the rooms aura takes on a good feeling.
He takes control..then things begin clicking fast it seems. .... I could not keeep track of what happened...he press's amazingly hard on the artery in my groin area ...auuughhhh, then gives the 1st shot of lidocaine to numb the pain-auughhhhhh...and LORD whats next you think
OH MY GOD...It gets worse... what the in name of Zeus are they doing? they are pressing & I feel liquid-o God it's my blood running down my leg from them shoving the catheter in.....They talk me thru & explain ... they even get toweling to asorb the blood...aughh.. ouchhh.. I can feel it down to my toes & up to my collar bone. the flippin lidocaine did little I want to say But I am to freakin polite & I am gripping my fists & holding the siderails & my breaths-actually I am pretty sure that I am going to pass out soon..but I can't speak because I am in so much pain I can't even tell them. My head is swirling-I can hear them.
I am having a rt & lt done & they are shoving a port in my rt groin that is about 7-10 inches long & it is thick in diameter...kind of like ..hmmm like the pop button in a turkey, when its done cooking it pops & you pull it out? right... that's whats this is - only a bigger version -ok? because then the surgeon will thread the catheter in thru this. The hope is he wants to do both in the same side. They prepped the right & left side to be safe that's why the gown has both right & left exposed they prepped both..

they check the cameras, & shoot Benadryl in the IV, & I feel all sorts of things swirl thru my body, the they begin the dye......weird....they watch the cameras..which are over my head-you CAN NOT watch ...They are talking I feel awful... this is a horrible experience...I want it over... I wonder if this is like an allergic reaction??? i can 't breathe very well... I am doing my focus meditation breathing...concentrate..I do my prayer ` Our Father who Art in Heaven ' over & over to focus....... then its over..... the surgeon comes over says all is looks good... he will see in recovery in a bit.. They nurses finish up? I still have things inside I can see the wall of monitors now...auughhhh.... my heart-the wires ..thru me.....auughhh .. they are pulling the catheters out but leaving the port in & plugging it & I can't move for several hours.
Fine. who would want to. I am in such pain. but its over.
the problem is I have this low potassium and I have had low thyroid fopr many years. I may have an adrenal problem.. possibly addisons? but for now I am just very tired alot an have to figure out how to navigate where I am....
I always have my buddies

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